Sunday, March 13, 2011
Chapter 1: 01-11-11 Expecting to Fly
Expecting to fly
Camped at Casper’s Wilderness the night before. Dog’s not allowed, but I wasn’t told and I didn’t ask so they let me & Mischa stay the one night. Even gave me a discount - $15.
Went to stay the next two nights with Old friends, The Hydeman’s. It was nice to see them, have access to a bath and a bathroom in the middle of the night. I tried to cook for them but they had meals already planned.
I ate too well, which seems to be common with my hosts.
I’ve got my own food and am way far from starving, but of course, thankful for their kindnesses.
But it’s not food I’m hungry for. It’s purpose. Contribution. Validity for my day.
When I’m camping there’s been little to do after putting up the tent. When I’m at a friend’s home I follow their plans and try not to disturb their habits. I felt guilty about having my hosts have to sign back into their FB or mail accounts several; times a day.
I started noticing the habits of a home and thinking about what “home” means. Obviously different things for different people. I noticed as I’d packed up my many possessions for storage home much my things “owned” me in many ways. And I noticed it in my friends as well. Finished with a days work, it was dinner, TV, maybe a movie or some music…then sleep. I had had that pattern myself. But I was not a participant any longer. Jackson Browne first voiced “They’re lost inside their houses, there’s no time to find them now”. We’d never have been the people Jackson wrote about…but somehow…we did. Natural progression. Lethargy. Just plain tired and seeking the path of least resistance.
I felt like an outsider to life. I didn’t have that lethargy. I was on pins & needles feeling on the verge of unexplored territory. Excited; frightened, but anticipatory.
I stood on the edge of a feather…expecting…something.
Chapter 1: 01 - 10 - 11
“Oh, you don’t know the shape I’m in”
Packed up from Doheny State Beach and drove to Orange to “Just-In-Time” Overnight delivery and brought my DMV print out. I’d applied before Christmas and ha gotten an email back on January 3rd asking for a resume. I sent it saying I could be available to interview as early as that Friday (the 7th) or anytime the next week at his convenience and that I’d bring the Printout at that time.
Not getting a replay, I decided to go in Monday to give the Printout with hopes that he might interview me while I was there. He did - sort of.
He had no recollection of having asked for my resume. He had e fill out another application and then he and another person grilled me. “ Any DUI’s”? “What are the points on your record for?!”
I don’t believe I have any points on my record currently” I replied . “See, the last dates have “’ero’ and ‘clear’. The earlier points were from 2000 and came off in 2006. I believe they were parking tickets.”
It went on in a dismissive inquisitional tone. He asked about why I’d been out of work for so long. I perhaps responded poorly for an interview but I was so taken back by the question. You have no idea how difficult it is to find a job out there these days. This is the worst economy since the great depression! I’ve applied for dishwasher positions and had the same question asked. And HR people don’t get it at all. They still operate under the belief that ther must be some character flaw if you can’t find work within g three months!” Like I said, perhaps not the best response in an interview situation.. But, JESUS, where have these people been living for the last 5 years? The last 3 years with daily reportage about the unemployment situation! I honestly believe that they don’t make the connection between the unemployed (bad, lazy people) and record high unemployment levels (just a number, like “11% unemployment”)
Anyway, they said, “We’ll look over your application and see if we have anything part time for you. We’ll call you in a couple of days if we do.” “For maybe a part time position?” The Job listing was a full time position. And I’d have taken it too!
My hopes dimmed. I hoped for a call over the next few days But the call never came. I called later. Position filled.
I had experience in the field. But I’m sure many others did too. There are a lot of bodies out there for every position listed. It’s a crapshoot as to who get’s it. But the odds favor the younger, out of work short applicants.
I left there that day thinking I was going to be camping at Huntington Beach that night (or Bolsa Chica) but it turned out that the information I’d received was ill-informed. I checked out every possible campsite all the way down till I was almost back at Doheny -Newport Dunes, Crystal Cove…Camping was either for Rv’s only or just too expensive for my budget. I headed back towards campgrounds in the south, trying to avoid going back as far as Doheny. It was a great place, but I was already trying to economize. O’Neill Park had been a first choice, but it was closed due to muddy conditions (Still is, as of Feb 16th, 2011) after two other locations didn’t pan out I called a place just before Doheny, but inland and cheaper called Casper’s Wilderness. The price wold save me $15 for the night and it was close by.
Great luck. They were open and the price was even lower than Doheny. I drove up Ortega Highway and finally arrived then found out “You can’t have a dog here. Didn’t they tell you?”
“No. they Didn’t”
“How many nights were you planning to stay”
“A couple”
“I’ll give you one”
“Ok”
The ranger was a nice guy - gave me a discount on the price, so a $25.00 fee became a $15.00 stay for the night. The “Nice guy” discount. I think I got the discount because HE was “the nice guy”.
Turns out a wilderness park is focused on protecting indigenous animals natural habitat. And letting dogs there reduces the space the “locals” will feel safe in. Also, if my dog defecates there, the processed food she eats will chase away a variety of animals who will smell it and notice a foreign odor and never return.
So I kept Mischa on a lease and in the tent. The tree we pitched out tent beneath was occupied by a very loud bird. Crow possibly, but I think maybe a magpie. Quite freaked out by our proximity.
But the thing that freaked me out and woke me from a dead sleep…was silence. No crickets, birds, frogs. Not even cars along the highway behind us (which could be quite loud - lots of bikers and muscle cars and trucks in need of tune ups passed by on a regular schedule it seemed.) but this was total absolute silence. I instinctively though a relatively large predator might be near. Bobcat, Mountain Lion, Cougar all three of them - what ever name you want to call it. It could be stalking my doggie…or ME!
But then the normal sounds started to breath again…and so did I.
Though each time that repeated during the night…I was wide awake.
I imagined mountain lions or coyote packs coming after us! But eventually my hyper-vigilance waned and the only thing that disturbed my sleep were the trucks or motorcycles that roared by on the nearby highway.
Chapter 1: Pre-Road Downs (12-23-10 thru 01-09-11)
Dec -23-10
Applied for Jobs in Orange County & Santa Cruz
Driver Position jobs in Orange - Video Producer Coordinator @ UCSC in Santa Cruz
Dec/24-25/10
Spent Christmas Eve & Day with my friend Paul visiting tow of his friends group gatherings one Christmas eve til midnight.
Then up at 7am to visit his friend Michelle’s family breakfast.
Then home around 2pm to rest up before returning that night for Christmas dinner.
Other friends (Nina & Gary) call to invite us to their shindig. We visit them until just about 4pm when we leave to go to dinner (of course we had to have some enchiladas and desserts while we were there.)
At the Dinner it was wonderful, spinach stuffed chicken, homemade dressing - the works, but a heavy rain has begun and I have to drive home in it. I got home after midnight cold but full and happy to see my dog and go to sleep.
Dec 26
I begin a week long process of packing - loading my landlords truck and unloading it into my storage space.
It is a hectic, strenuous, tiring week.
Dec 28th
The big move day. I get in all the big items but I still have boxes of stuff to move out of 3 rooms, bathroom, kitchen & garage. I get to use the truck again and load the truck over the 29th & 30th.
Dec 31st
New years eve. Rain is threatening. I move the last of this truckload off the lift gate just as the rain starts. As I am filling my 9x10 to the top and to the gate, rain is pounding on the metal roof above. After some logistical repacking I manage to get the last items in with hardly an inch of space to spare.
I return the storage company’s cart unmolested by rain; dehydrated , covered in sweat and completely exhausted.
My feet feel like a tympanist has been playing the 1812 Overture on them with meet mallets.
Walking is like a cross of John Wayne, Chester (from Gunsmoke) and Walter Brennan. (And I feel older than all of them combined).
My back hurts and un-rained upon, my clothes are sweat-soaked. My intentions upon arriving “home” (already the term is losing its currency with me) is to: (in this precise order) drink a LOT of water; pet my dog, Mischa; take a LONG hot bath!!
- an hour or so later - feeling more human (if barely more ambulatory) I decide I’m not let the new year pass unheralded’ I go to my local store and get: 1package of black eyed peas, 1 ham hock and 1 bottle of the cheapest sparkling wine I can find (Andre Asti Spumante - $3.99!)
Just prior to the close of east coast new years I call and leave a message for a friend on the east coast just on the stroke of midnight there and then call my friend Diane and her family here on the west coast as I know they will be going to sleep in minutes If I don’t call them right then!
As I push the speed dial I twist the cap off the Asti Spumante to drink a toast with them. (It’s Andre, remember - there’s no cork popping here!)
01-01-11
I was supposed to be out and begin my homeless phase today, but my landlord, Mike, has given me an extension that actually lasted until 01-07-11.
On Monday, Dec. 27th , my editor Rebecca, at the Moorpark Patch, sent me two possible assignments. A list of places to go for New Years and another of my man on the street interviews. I was unsure if I could fit them in with my move going on but I told her I’d try and if I couldn’t I’d let her know by Wednesday morning so she could re-assign them.
I’d managed the first one by Wednesday morning but couldn’t swing the interviews until Thursday. I managed to get the story out by 3:25 as it would now run on New Years Day!
That was my last official story for the Moorpark Patch. But my last interviews were another story. I chose to go to the Cactus Patch restaurant on High street in Moorpark because of so many of my interviews had been from there. The place is such a hub of community that it makes “Cheers” seem like just another watering hole.
I had another reason I wanted to go there. Two, actually, as I had never eaten there and felt I should have at least sampled their fare once before I left.
But the primary reason was that on an interview assignment before Thanksgiving, I’d interviewed one of their employees, David Engraham, who was a young kid with a ready smile, a kind heart and an inner light that shone for all to see. Just after that Thanksgiving, that light was put out, apparently due to asthma.
In our interview he’d talked with great anticipation of spending the holidays with his father’s side of the family and meeting them for the first time. Happily he did get that experience before he died. The thing was, I had his voice on tape from that interview. A voice that expressed a joy and kindness that my typed words could never convey. So I wanted to get the tape to someone that it would mean something to. That it might ease a sorrow or lift a saddened heart. Bring a smile upon the listening. So that day I asked if it would be useful for anyone of them. The next day, New years day, I brought and played them the micro cassette with David’s voice and expressiveness on it. I hoped it would do much good. From the smiles on their faces, I thought it just might.
Jan 1-7
A repeat of the prior week but for a smaller space (5x5) and the soreness seemed to increase exponentially. I was also trading my CD collection to my landlord (after selling what I could to the people who bought my record collection) to cover what I owned him from my November rent (my deposit covered my December rent). My deal for the 9x10 storage was pre-pay 3 months in advance get 3 months, but I only had enough for 2 months in advance for the 5x5 so I took that deal and packed my remaining positions minus a few items that stayed with my landlord and left the afternoon of December 7th (a day that will last in infamy…); my car loaded to the gills for my life on the road.
I had been offered a few nights at my friend Paul’s in Anaheim before beginning being homeless in earnest. And I still had that potential job interview in Anaheim that could turn everything around.
As I walked to my car, the Mock Orange tree took it’s last shot at me and scraped several big gouges into my head. I’ll miss you too, tree!
Jan 8-9
Two good das with my friend/brother Paul who didn’t quite get why I’d choose this journey over going to a shelter. Maybe it’s for other people but the kind of restricted confined dependent life that those places have to offer…makes me shudder. Like in the movie Shawshank Redemption “Either get busy living or get busy dying”. I chose life. And those places are sure death to me. Or Hall and Oats “The strong give up and go, while the weak give up and stay”.
If I’m going to beg for a living, I’ll do it on my terms. Better to beg from friends and associates and a acquaintances with some possible exchange of value for their contribution, then to be subservient to a system that neither cares for you or your success, nor is designed for it. Plus I have a dog to care for, it just wouldn’t work that way.
I leave to go to camp at Doheny State Beach (where I ended up - I was actually going to camp at O’Neill park…but they were closed - their ground was too soggy - thru March it turned out!) and Paul give me directions to the cheap gas station in Fullerton…and $100! He is my first supporter! Not part of my 3 levels of solicitation - far above the first two and below the top level; but I’m surprised and touched by this from him. He’s dealing with difficult economic times himself and has just mentioned that his main supporter at his main client, Mitsuhishi, is no longer going to be with the company and someone whom he had had previous difficult dealings with is taking that person’s place. This did not bode well for his Creative Corral Advertising business. So, to give me that was a wonderful gift. I knew he didn’t understand. But he supported just the same. I struck me that I had more joy in my life at that moment as I drove off into an unsure future with nothing but my car, my dog, the things I stuffed into the car and his hundred dollars, than he did. He trusts structure and doesn’t seem to deal well in it’s absence - his or anyone else's. He is a good man, one you can trust, one with a ready smile and surprising hidden creativity behind his button down persona. If you know him, It’s only surprising that it seems hidden from others. He’s always been creative. But, it’s like his secret identity. Only his inner circle see behind the mask. In a traditional Hollywood movie, he’s the one smiling and waving encouragement as I drive off and I’m the one choked up and teary eyed, worried about the future.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Oh, I'm on my way. I know I am. Somewhere not so far from here.
Least, that's the plan.
48 states in 48-9 weeks and back to California from Oregon. Just before Christmas next year.
Along the way camping with my dog Mischa, taking pictures, recording interviews, composing a book of the journey
I've been paid to write for the past 3 months and it felt good to do something productive and get paid for it. Especially something I felt some pride doing and something others seemed to enjoy reading.
So now it's time to attempt to find a way to do this.
My grandfather had a book by Rene Descartes called "The Body of Philofohpy" (The "F's" were used as "S's" back then).
The book had elaborate illustrations of the coat of arms of all the benefactors of the work.
What I propose is a similar endeavor.
50 Benefactors supplying $1 a day for a year ($365)
300 Supporters supplying $1 a week for a year ($52)
600 Subscribers supplying $2 a month for a year ($24)
A total of 950 unique individual benefactors to the work.
At the end of the year, either I will have a book deal or will self publish.
The Benefactors will have their name above a Chapter heading as well as on pages at the back of the book, indexed.
The Supporters will have their name to the top left of a Non Chapter page as well as on pages at the back of the book, indexed.
The Subscribers will have their name to the bottom left or right of a Non Chapter page as well as on pages at the back of the book, indexed.
The 50 Benefactors will get a copy of the book free.
The 300 Supporters will have the option to buy the book at half price.
The 600 Subscribers will have the option to buy the book at a 25% discount.
So - I'm asking for financial help/support on this endeavor.
I know a few people who know me well enough to be my Benefactors on this, and some who have a since of me from the last few years on Facebook that it wouldn't seem too strange to be one of the 50.
But with these economic times as they are, I see it can be a hardship for many of my friends who know me best.
If you do offer to support me on this venture, pick one and only one level of support and only one that feels comfortable to you financially.
If you're unsure, watch Facebook and this blog (only for the 50) as I progress through the states and decide if it's been a good read and worth $24, $52 or even $365. Once I fill a category I will return (or apply to the next lowest open level) the balance of your money (or if you've sent more than on support level.)
I want to solicit funding but at low donation levels and only one donation per person. I guess part of my aim is to see how many friends I can convince to follow this adventure with me.
The plan is to merge the concepts of Steinbeck's "Travel's with Charlie", and Studs Terkel's "Hard Times" & "Working" interviews into a documentary piece about contemporary America.
Seven days in each state, and interview each day, commentary on the days news from that states media, my travelogue, day-to-day minutia of places visited, routes taken, items paid for, supplies used. Rants, photos, audio and perhaps video files along with music & movie or literary quotes strewn about the veiwing landscape for your enjoyment.
I'm also looking for "hosts" people who know me and would be willing to put me and my dog (Mischa) up for a night or two (no more than 3 evenings max) and show me your area, tell me it's history, tell me stories of your dealing with the recent economy, any 99er's or homeless like me you could introduce me to, or anything you might think of that could represent you, your state and our time well.
I feel like I'm being "called" to do this, and have been thinking about this for over a year. But I can't do this alone. I need assistance. And I'm asking for those of you that can see the use of this adventure, as I do, to support me on this journey, this quest.
If you can, send (and put your name in the comments as you would like it in the book) $24, $52, or $365 to
Paypal: for cohalen@yahoo.com
I expect to begin this journey the week of the 16th - probably in Nevada.
I'll post more as I go along.
- Rik
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
There's A Place in the world for a Gambler

I've been blessed and cursed. You see I discovered late in life what I've always been a little "Different".
Where I can speak my mind
I've been trying hard to find the people
That I won't leave behind
They say I got brains
But they ain't doing me no good
I wish they could
Each time things start to happen again
I think I got something good goin' for myself
But what goes wrong
Lt. Dunbar: Yes sir, before it's gone.
People become really quite remarkable when they start thinking that they can do things. When they believe in themselves they have the first secret of success. - Norman Vincent Peale
Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
by William Hutchinson Murray (1913-1996), from his 1951 book entitled The Scottish Himalayan Expedition
“Commitment is what transforms a promise into reality. It is the words that speak boldly of your intentions. And the actions which speak louder than the words. It is making the time when there is none. Coming through time after time after time, year after year after year. Commitment is the stuff character is made of; the power to change the face of things. It is the daily triumph of integrity over skepticism."
[this is commonly attributed to Abraham Lincoln or Shearson Lehman (American Express) or anon.]
Monday, October 5, 2009
Homeless, Not Hopeless
Like a complete unknown
Like a rolling stone?
To get my feet back on the ground
I’ve been chasing grace
Grace ain’t so easily found
One bad hand can devil a man,
Chase him and carry him down
I’ve got to get out of here,
Just give me One Good Year
Monday, June 30, 2008
And so it Begins!
I've spent the last three months getting to this day. Sourcing vendors, trying different website hosts, learning to use the software and loading in products.
It's been intense...and I'm not done yet. But I'm close enough to give it a test run: see how orders ship to my customers; Explore the product selection; find out how customer service and returns flow.
My hope is to grow this business naturally and organically.
Not having "too much success" to early.
And so, my plan is to gain customers slowly, person to person, by referral and word of mouth.
In the early days I plan to be able to act as a personal shopper for my customer base. If you don't see what you want, can't find it anywhere...let me have a shot of it.
I even plan to try to make regular trips to places like Amoeba Records in Hollywood to look for rare out of print items.
Also, if I can't find a vendor I can buy through at a price that is competitive for you, I can often still find your item being sold by someone I have an "associate" relationship with.
They give me a small percentage of the sale that I refer to them, you get what you're looking for at a good price. A true win-win all the way around.
I also plan to give links to some cool things I find in my searches even If I can't sell the item myself.
Here's an example:
Stranahan's Colorado Whiskey
I don't have the required license (yet) to sell alcohol, but if I did I'd sell this.
I saw it on History Channel's Modern Marvel's episode on Whiskey.
Made from local barley grains and Rocky Mountain spring water, I was impressed that they were a whiskey "micro-distillery".
They lease vats for their first wash from their a neighbor brewpub, Oskar Blues brewery. It is then double distilled in a Scotch style and a Bourbon style, then aged for two years. Made in small batches, it sells in only 30 states (so far) from between $50.00 to $60.00 a bottle.

I went to the Jamison's Distillery in Middleton, Ireland (Not far from Blarney Castle) and was fortunate enough to be one of four chosen tasters that April day in County Cork.
Before getting to "the good stuff" we toured the plant and saw the giant kettles and the casking rooms and learned about the "Angeles' share" that is lost to evaporation and how the burnt casks add to the mellow color of the Whiskey.
While I can't yet claim to be a Whiskey sommelier (there are actually courses for it) I sure enjoy the "training" have had so far.
I invite you to post; ask questions; speak of your discoveries out there on the web and just open a dialog here.
Well that's it for this blog. Who knows where my adventure will lead me next.
I'll leave you with my new favorite quote - from the movie "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium"
Your life is an occasion. Rise to it.
Till then, my friends, "take the journey"!
- Cohalen
